Whatever

These mood swings are driving me insane
Even if I were constantly depressed
I would prefer its regularity to this
I just want to be able to sleep
Yet nothing's stopping me now and for some reason I won't.
I think I'm just trying to put off tomorrow
And why not?
Nothing good will come of it

I'm sick of this up and down
They each make the other feel insincere and shallow
And the whole thing is making me nauseous

I just want to walk to school, listen to music I never liked all that much, stop for some coffee, and spend all day with a bleak look on my face
I want the gray back