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I like...

to spend hours on facebook looking at photos, and pretending that strangers are my friends

to read everyone's posts on facebook and blogger, and pretend that they were written with me in mind

to make eye contact with strangers, and pretend they had been watching me

to stay quiet in class, and fake that I know what's going on

to read past notes and yearbook signatures, and lie to myself that everyone else still remembers me

to pretend that others were just busy, and that's why they didn't stay in touch

to walk around pretending I'm happy and in control

But sometimes, I just like to lie on the ground, and let the weight of the realism crush me, purely just to punish myself for living in a fantasy